The truth about separation anxiety

OK, I’ll admit it, when I was a preschool teacher I used to shake my head at the moms who had such a hard time leaving their child.  It seemed obvious to me that by prolonging their goodbyes and furrowing their brows they were only escalating their child’s separation anxiety.  If they would just leave swiftly, their child would settle in and enjoy the day much sooner!

Now that I have my own child, I definitely have more compassion for those moms.  It’s so hard to leave sometimes!  And when your little one is clinging to you and asking you to stay, I imagine it’s almost impossible to walk away.

But as my daughter and I have our first experiences of separation anxiety, I’m realizing that right now, I’m actually more upset than she is!  And after seeing lots of young kids freak out when their moms leave them at preschool, I know that I had better get a handle on my own separation anxiety now, so that I don’t transfer my upset to my beloved child.

So, I picked up Elizabeth Pantley’s “No-Cry Separation Anxiety Solution” and I am really enjoying it.  Pantley says that separation anxiety for both parent and child is completely normal and natural and that it’s actually an indication of a strong and healthy attachment.  Whew!  What a relief!

OK, so now that I know that my upset is caused by my deep love for my child, I can relax a little bit and give myself some compassion.  I dearly, deeply love my daughter and want what’s best for her.  And intellectually I know that what’s best for her is to form and maintain ongoing relationships with several trusted adults and some peers.

But emotionally, sometimes I just want her all to myself.  There, I’ve said it.  So now it’s time to take stock.  And actually, I’m already making great progress in sharing her with other adults.  Her Grammy comes over twice a week, she has a Daddy day every week, and she spends several hours each week with our good friend who is a childcare professional.  She is starting to go on outings without me and so far it’s going well.

So in the moments when she needs me, I think it’s OK to go to her.  I’ve also been giving her more time by herself while I’m home and if she calls out  for me I simply call back, “Hey sweetie, I’m in here folding some laundry.  I’ll see you in a minute.”  If she gets upset, I go to her immediately, but often, just knowing that I’m nearby is enough to calm her.

Now that I think about it, I bet some of my separation anxiety comes from my own early childhood experience of going from my mom’s house to my dad’s house and back again every week.  No matter how happy I was to reunite with the parent I missed, I also had to say goodbye to a parent I loved dearly.  Hmmm, isn’t it amazing how our own experiences can color our experiences with our children?

I’m so curious, what have your experiences been with separation anxiety?  What helped you the most?  In Pantley’s book she shares a great idea about a magic bracelet that you fill with your love and send with your child to school or daycare.  I love that idea!  I also remember a children’s book about a mother raccoon (I think) giving her child a kiss on the palm that he got to take with him.  I think it’s so important to help children understand that our love stays with them even when they’re far from us.  And I guess I need to reassure myself that my daughter’s love stays too, even when she’s at her Grammy’s for the afternoon.

I hope you’re having a fantastic week.  Love, Shelly